To Her

I was feeling very, and i mean very, very tired when all of a sudden a thought came across my head.

What would happen if one day when i'm gone?

When the day comes for the world to put me into history,

The only thing i will ask is someone to continue my love for you.

I know you've been hurt before, and now that you have no intention to fall in love again, i seriously don't know if i have what it takes to melt your heart again....

Time flies, no, it warps, it does. I am already in my 20 this year, half more decade to go then a quarter of my myth lifespan is gone. Apparently, my lifespan has nothing to do with my love life, it's just an excuse to hide my shyness that rises every time i see you. But, let's not make it a secret anymore, okay? :)

Yes, i admit that i am insanely in love with you, not psycho, though. I fell in love at first sight, this may sound ridiculous to you, but it means everything to me, it's my first time feeling this kind of "feeling" and i am glad to tell you that, i pretty much enjoy it, even until this very day. Every time i bump into you my ears turn sizzling hot, my eyes going roller-coaster, my mouth reads magnitude 8.0 on Richter scale, all my gray matters turn numb, all because of you! Each day those lovesick symptoms accumulate more and more in my body. Eventually, i hunger for your love more than a mosquito that hungers for your blood, also not to forget your smile that brings sunshine into my night.

I have a lot to tell you, more than Grin Reaper can count lives in his bony hands, it's not literal. Literally, it's not what i can utter.

So here I am, squatting here in my site - that's what i always do, waiting for you. I know it might take me forever to speak out how i feel, but some day, maybe some day i might find my guts to go in front of you and say: "I love you." But, not today.

ryo signing off, gimme a break.......